If you're like me, you get in deep, meditative moods sometimes. I'm in one of those right now. Usually, when I enter into that kind of mood, I seek out some Brooke Fraser. And now, I just feel like writing. So that's what I'll do.
I never realized how intense this summer would be. I thought I would blog a lot more than I have, and I that's okay. I mean, I wish the date on the calendar read July 8th instead of August the 8th, but something inside of me is just so okay with this summer being over...and not because it hasn't been amazing. I'm going to miss it a lot, especially with being the summer-fanatic I naturally already am.
God's shown me so much favor these past few months, but it's been about more than that. It's like this summer has been all of my heart's desires wrapped up into one prayer, and God just responded, "Yes, you can have it all."
I'm sorry for my lame way of explaining that...
Words just can't describe it. And it's not to say that all the little things I've asked God for were given to me, it's just that I feel God literally reached down and answered something I've asked Him about since I was just a little kid.
Going back to Brooke Fraser. I've written about her song, "Arithmetic," and how it was my favorite song in another one of my blog posts. I love this song, and if anything could encapsulate what's in my heart, that would be it. I don't have it on my ipod or anything because I'm afraid of over-playing it and making it lose its meaning, so I don't get to hear it often. Well. It's like things have come into full circle now because (I know I'm not that old), but there's a part where she goes, "When the years are showing on my face, and my strongest days are gone...you'll still be the one I want..."
And that's where I'm at. What I wanted ten years ago in my life *crack a you're-so-young joke right here if you want* is still what I want today, and His name is Jesus. My faith has been tested, and I know I still want God. I know He's still what I live for, and that makes me want to step into my own. It's like the words of 1 Timothy 4:12 where Paul writes "do not let anyone look down on you because you are young, but, set an example..." are coming to life for me. I'm at the point where it's time to take ownership of my faith, be the example because there's no one left to copy...and, as hard as it is sometimes, I'm doing it because HE is the one I want. I can finally get up and do things people don't agree with because I know He's the one at the beginning of it, and He's the one at the end of it. Bottom line.
I set the example because, like Pastor Nate said, it's a "follow me as I follow Christ" type thing.
I do things bc of Him.
This may or may not get deleted because I'm half- asleep right now and may think differently about this post in the morning, but I love you guys. I can't believe I'm so tired so early on a summer night though!
Well. Bye, now.
